- plot twist: you actually have someone who thinks you're beautiful, and genuinely wants to be with you.
Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a C. You give 110% to someone in a relationship who only gives 40%. You’re there for a best friend at 3:00am and the next day they don’t pick up their phone. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything and they’re just walking away with it.
this times a fucking thousand
I feel stupid because I’m so upset, even though our time together was incredibly short.
Maybe it’s because I had so much faith in you. So much to look forward too. So many sweet words. So many tears.
You’re different. You’re a very special individual. Very, very special. Everything about you seems so pure and fresh. Every second I was with you, I cherished. You treated me better than anyone has ever before. I don’t think you believed me when I said that, but I swear to you that that is the truth.
I wanted to fall in love with you. I wanted to be your world, your reason for happiness, your first and last thought of the day, your best friend. God, how I want to be your best friend. I’m so jealous of all of those that are so close to you, while I’m in the background screaming for your attention, but still not getting through. I can’t tell if I love you or the idea of you. All I know is I want you back. So badly. You say that you see us being together again, but you seem just fine without me. This is such a terrible feeling. I feel so pathetic, crying over someone who’s heart I hardly touched. Losing sleep over someone that probably doesn’t dream about me. Swallowing my heart, because of someone that left me for all the wrong reasons.